From a Dreamer's Scratch Pad


   MANIFEST DESTINY

   I can see it now,
          a new memorial,
      Thomas Jefferson and Alexander Hamilton
   Stand on a pedestal and upon their
      shoulders rests a reclining lady liberty.
   She holds the grapes of wrath in one
      hand and the world in the other.
   The pedestal states:
         This is America, country destined to rule
     the world.
    Look on our works, you powerful,
          and cringe.

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This is a poem I wrote for a history class, when I didn't believe the teacher had emphasized the failure of America to carry the "White Man's Burden" and I felt that he had missed the point history was trying to teach us. We aren't a nation of giants, we failed.

I was really full of myself, wasn't I?


              LOS LIBROS
        interesantes, diversos
     ensenan, ensanchan, ansamblan
   candelas que iluminan obscuridad
             conocimiento.

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I'm sure there is a word for this type of poem, but I've certainly forgotten it. It's in Spanish (duh), and it's not the only poem I've written in another language, but I'm afraid the Greek ones won't make it here.


   AN AMERICAN SONNET: NEWSWEEK

   Two policemen attack a Mexican immigrant and his little daughter
   as the men on the next page drink Blended Scots Whiskey and talk.
   A page later, two buffalo fight for USWEST direct and
   Snoopy sells insurance.  Page five shows green-clad soldiers
   marching into Mozambique, while the ever present Marlboro man
   looks ruggedly at the sun.           Special this Month:
   The good and bad -- A day in the life of America.
        In Texas, cowboys rope a calf
        In Washington, cheerleaders adapt to nuclear circumstances
        In California, two men beat up a drunk in an alley
        In Georgia, a Ku Klux Klan member kisses her granddaughter
        In Connecticut, a yellow-haired boy gets his first haircut
   But the end shows a back cover father studying with his son.
     Real fathers don't.  Maybe the summit meeting will settle that.

-Laura Dunham
4-17-87

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This is one of my favorite poems from my High School life. Not because it is any good, though I've been told it is, but because my teacher unwittingly complimented me hugely when he critiqued it.

The assignment was simple, take a magazine out of the huge box 'o mags the teacher had brought, read it, then write a poem about it. About any aspect of it. Another assignment that week was to write a sonnet, and he suggested that we combine the two and write a magazine sonnet.

The first magazine I picked up I hated. I absolutely detested the callous way in which horrific stories were thrown together with trivial ads for alcohol and cigarettes. It made me so angry just reading the piece of crap... that I wrote my poem about it. I intended to subtly critique it, a task I'd never tried too much of before.

To my surprise, the teacher loved it. But there was one problem with it, he said. Although it described the magazine in wonderfully simple and stark words, he got the uneasy feeling from the poem that I didn't like the magazine.

And so, I present it to you whole, as I first turned it in. Completely unrevised, because it was my greatest triumph yet.


    WITH THE FUTURE LEFT BEHIND

         The model student
              across the room,
     Writes constantly, looks up
       occasionally.
      A thought slips in and whispers
   "If I were her, I would fly out
             That window and
        become the hawk that searches for
          words and paints others' lives
                   on paper sky."

           She stops writing - that
    thoughtful feeling moves across
            her face.
               Maybe she isn't an A
             student, but her nerves are
           imbedded in poetry,
                 and I can only hope
                    that someday
                I will sit under that
                      window with a
       freshman wishing at me.

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Everyone has a role model, even if you don't know it. This role model was immortalized in a half-envious poem, written because I wanted to be one of the "old" crowd, the folk that knew how to act, knew how to react. I eventually reached that pinnacle of life, and learned that it was more of the same.


 THE BUS DRIVER ENROUTE TO THE FIRST STOP MAKES-BELIEVE SHE IS A POET

        She stops at the red light, wishing it would stay red 
   forever.  The radio sings about the glory of love; the bus 
   thrums with the beat.  The car noises drown in the music and 
   dreams ease in.  Thoughts surround her like electric currents.  
   This is where she learns the most, with a cold red light above.  
   Philosophy floats above the bus, and plays with long remembered 
   questions.  The sorrowful sky empties nothing but acid rain.  
   She turns, misses the changing of the light.  Her mind empties
   as she begins the journey again.  Everything is as it will 
   always be for the poet bus driver who spills her dreams on a 
   schoolday route.

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Prose can be a type of poetry, and I worked with it a lot in high school. This piece was in honor of a friend who had helped me keep my sanity during the 45 minute bus ride to middle school the year before.

Thanks Linda.


   DREAMSCAPE PAINTED IN GREY WITH
        HINTS OF GREEN CANVAS

         Fog opens a door.
           Olive clouds and light-
         Black stones drift and merge.
         notice the city's graffiti-covered
           Walls are hidden.


                   UNPREPARED TO ACCEPT DEATH

        The clouds darkened and a dragon's breath wind flew by.  
   The sky became twilight as I strode down the street.  The wind 
   blew down fabricated walls of protection that I had built up 
   for years.  In the half-purple light of thunder, I lost my 
   confident stride and moved faster.  Then the rain started.  
   Saturated to the bone in an instant, I ran to find shelter.  
   Any shelter.  Fire danced on the telephone wires, a twig of 
   evergreen hit my mouth; for an instant the dry smell of 
   pinecone prevailed.  I looked for any familiarity and found 
   rain unlike the usual Washington brand I've always experienced.  
   I ran hopelessly, and even when I switched directions all I 
   felt was the narrow street beneath my shoes.  I quickened my 
   erratic pace, hoping I would run into the side of a house or 
   tree that could provide security.  I stumbled and the rain 
   mercilessly held me down.  I cried but my tears were the rain.  
   I waited but the torment was forever.
   I woke up.
        Reality shattered through the window and I remembered.  Just 
   yesterday daydreams came on the summer sun.  I cried again.


   LONELINESS TASTES LIKE A MATH BOOK

        The black outline, done in pen,
    shows the contours of a classroom.
         There are desks, and chairs,
     a clock buzzing on the wall and a shelf
      of old books.  The room is empty except
    a figure sitting, hunched and writing.
        The background is
    white with grey speckles, like
            photocopied pages.


        60 YEARS OR 6,000 SILENT MILES
                 ARE TOO NEAR

    News in the back of the Times wakes
        me and I flow to an old box with
           an older date on it.
        Sitting inside is the Ragged, wild blue,
   sunshine green
           and singing gold on the satin skin
   of the Letterman's Jacket.
     A symbol for band
         and everlasting garlic laughs
    make me remember the old fear
                of acceptance.
       We never see far enough in the distance to know,
         because another friend has died
           and my High School is closing.

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I often wished my High School would close. And, as the title implies, time has yet to heal the wounds that were inflicted on me during that "wonderful" time.


           BASKETBALL CHAMPS

      My anger, joy--
      Words fold and crease,
        balance in the
      Simple complexity of a
      Paper airplane.  We are losing;
        tempers have become firecrackers
      Without fuses.  Emotions stretch
      To their rubberband limits.  It
        wouldn't be hard to lose
      Control, blame the refs,
      Or the other team.
        instead, I express me
      Folds and creases until
      Sharp edges and undaunted lines
        appear.  As the game ends, a
      Light blue airplane sobs
      And twists through the air,
        strangled; crashes against
          the floor, smashed by
            angry spectators.

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I remember a basketball game when both sides accused the other of cheating, and the refs of being unfair or on the other team's side. There could've been a riot, but lighter emotions prevailed, because in the big scheme of things, a High School basketball game doesn't mean all that much.


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