Holding Ragnarok Away


    POEM FOR THE RETURN OF THE POET

       My own hands embrace
         the pen like an old lover
       and the words come back
         from the back rooms of my mind
       where they stayed during the
         drive-by shootings and drug raids
           out front.
       I warm up to the pen
         remembering brings the laughter
       out from where it all hid
         in the deep closets underneath
       old Beatles records and Legos.
       Bringing out the songs for the Next Generation,
         my heart is inspired to write more sequels
       than Rocky has,
         The return is triumpant
            but the words are still mine.


     THE POET BECOMES ABSTRUSE

   I've never seen the man in the moon
      but I've seen the aliens come down
   They asked my friend where eternity dwells
      and laughed when she said it didn't.
   Looking for the fountain of youth
      they left us gazing
   And I remember how we swore
      to never tell.
     Who would believe?

   Yesterday, I saw the moon
      unblinking, it stares at human folly
   and watches the decades pass
      a giant eye in the vacuum of space.
   Watching eternity.

      If the aliens come again
   I'll tell them
      It's here, with Ozymandias
    and the moon.
         Won't you come in
         for a cup of tea?


         OFF TO GRAD SCHOOL

   Circles in the sky, grey seagulls,
      Drop of rain enter puddles
         and more circles ripple out.
      Wheels on a bus, circles, I am ringed
   by amusement and pain.
         Amusement is my friend, he wears
   a red and silver cloak and talks but rarely,
      and all he says makes the corners
   of my mouth quirk upwards.
         Pain is another friend, also in red
   his eyes convey everything, looking into
      them I see
        A child curled alone on the floor
        A soldier with a frightened gun
        Two friends parting
      and grim slivers of silver
         slicing, stabbing towards the soft center
      the trembling gel within
         and almost puncturing

   I stand in the rain,
      missing your laughter already
   even though I can still smell
      the exhaust of the bus
         when it left.


               STATUE

      They stand in an embrace
            a man and a woman
         She is crying,
               delicate hand clenched
         unforgivingly around a sheet of paper
            He supports her tears,
         unwilling to show his emotions
         (but his blank face shows them all
      raw, painful, like a storm
            lightning shuddering cloud to cloud
            bullets of hail punishing the ground
            a wind unlike the waves against the shore
                     but is instead a sword slashing)
      The ignorant crowds walk around them in silence
         unseeing, or unwilling to see.


                  SIGYN TALKS TO HER HUSBAND

"Loki, the Norse god of mischief and strife, was responsible for the
murder of Balder, the favorite god in the Norse pantheon.  As
punishment, one of his sons was turned into a wolf and killed the
other son, whose entrails were used to tie Loki to a stone, and
a snake dripping poisonous venom was suspended over his face.
Only his wife was faithful enough to remain by him, holding a
wooden bowl over his eyes to protect him from the venom.  When
Loki breaks free, the final battle, Ragnarok, will start, signifying
the end of the world."

      "Faithful" is the only word they allow me.
      As if my tears when my son was killed
        Ripped by his brother-wolf,
      As if his life entrails binding your body
      Were nothing.

      I am nothing to them but faithful
      As my hands grip the wooden bowl
      Protecting your eyes from dripping venom
      Protecting your eyes from the world.

      The poison drips, adds to the burden
      In my bowl.  It fills with revenge.
      You feel the drops when I leave
      To empty the bowl
      Falling into your eyes.
      Your body shudders, shakes the ground
      That you are held to,
      Gripped by the last embrace
      Of our son.

      His brother howls, hear the
      Lament for his murdered brother.
      He does not howl for you.
      But I am faithful, holding
      time in a fading grasp.

      Do the gods see that you will break the binds?
      Do they know the pain that will make you fight?
      Do they care that I am the one who holds Ragnarok away?

      Oh, Loki, my husband,
      My arms are tired.


            LOVEPOEM

      Pale hands rest
         In the twilight room.
      Waiting.

         You want to say something.
      I want you to say it,
         but I remain mute, while
      you start at your hands.
         The television slings
      sound at us, traffic
         outside the window
      whooshes through slush.
         I would say those words
      if I knew how.

      You start to speak,
         looking up, paleness
      leaks out of brown eyes,
         blocks the words,
      But I hear them anyway.

         For an instant we are nothing
      shivering together,
         we see how pale the air is
      and look past hands, eyes.

      We see our weaknesses mirrored
         in each other
      and step closer

      Shattering the pale.


               CHORALE OF YOUTH

            We, Children of the Media
            Raised by a television screen.
            Do not presume we don't comprehend
                  Your curving words and slashing
                  sentences.
            We have given up the solid
                  for the abstract.
            You dip your hands in the cool
                  mountain stream
            Our hands are immersed
                  in the electric warmth of cyberspace.
            Your comfort is in a long line of meaningless
                  words arranged as a wall to protect
                  you forever from meaning.
            Our strength is in sharp
                        stacato
                     sentences
                           that hit
                              like
                     machine gun
                           bullets.


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